Here we go again

Just woke up, at 7:15am because I couldn't sleep anymore. This weekend was bad after I typed the nice blog entry yesterday. I went to church and after I called the ex. So I asked If she was going to easter dinner, this was about 1pm, and I wanted to tell her some things that went on a church because I "thought" she'd like to know, but she just blew me off. Which is if "hey, she is my ex-wife" but rudely. So I called my cuz and asked about if she was going to ester dinner, and got the same response, so I said, "well I guess I'm not invited." Heck I didn't want to go eat somewhere by myself. All I wanted was to go out and eat, I was going to do something really nice for everyone involved buy paying for their dinner. Did I tell them that? No because I didn't have the chance too. So I called the ex again and she was really upset for the comment I made to my cuz. I didn't know they where talking to one another. About what I don't know and didn't really care. It was easter "man" I wanted to be around people! So the ex got hung up on by me, because I got another call, just like she did to me when she was talking to my cuz. That made her really mad, and she called a butch of times while I was on the phone with this "my mom" and left me a message, "I think it was two." So after I was done talking to my mom I listened to the messages and it really brought me down.....way down in the gutter.....so far down just like when a friend said, "I can be your friend anymore." "down, down, down" Ok, that's ok it's not like she's said bad things before, but this time it really upset me. Not making me mad upset just sad inside. Why? Because I thought she changed her life just like I'm trying to change my life and she somehow twisted it around and used it against me. Like always! So whatever if she can't understand the way things went down, so be it! Cuz you'll tell here about what I said here anyways. I don't understand why you cuz are mad either. If your mad about why I said, "so I'm not invited" that's the way I felt yesterday, that's nothing you should be mad about! I'm the one that should be mad, but I'm not. I'm sad! It really sucked! All over something so stupid, that I couldn't get a straight answer or be heard. So me and my kid just went out and it was fun too!

So now it's time I got to go again to the dentist at 10am. Yep another one this time it's either a root canal or teeth filling, I forget which. Wish me luck!