Going out of my way

Going out of my way, does it even matter?
Why do I do the things to myself and the people around me?
What's it all for anyways, life and the pursuit of happiness?
Stop it for awhile then do it all over again I guess?
This is stupid and I'm stupid for doing things in general right?
Time to quit and move in a new direction for what?
For me damn-it for fucking me, let's go now down that road of whatever-ness right?
Right now starting with this or that and a dash of reality!

Changes:
So I'm broke inside and
outside braking so hard
I can't get my head clear
of things that are so dear
why oh why do I
just stop to the end
when should I quit when
I'll just begin again
suffering the same way
every single day
what's it worth to me
broke down is hard to see
the tension in it
feels to be right
in front of thee
but where should I go next in mind
just brake and wait for the sign
it's here at last for what I've been waiting for
time to change and open the new door.