Ick, Ick, Ick......that's how I feel waking up. Not throw-up sick but just not all there since I went out maybe for the last time last night. Sure I've said that before one hundred times but this time I'm really game for it. It's not worth the risk which I stupidly did last night driving home drunk, but I've done it before. Just couldn't stay at Sherri's house...so I left....hell yeah. So now that I'm done going out forever I really don't know what's going to happen on New Years? Maybe I'll just work anyways. That will keep me from doing stupid shit like I did last night. All I have to remember is that the Doggybizkit got his life turned upside down because of a DUI (still pending) and I don't need that. How stupid I was, but not anymore!
Drinkin' in a bar is fun, but not really, it's all for show or a game of wit's, who can do better at picking up chicks or chicks picking up dudes, why I ask myself is it so fucking fun doing that, well It is fun but not for me anymore. Giving up trying to be noticed! That's what it's all about getting noticed. Doing stupid stuff just to get noticed, why? If someone has an interest in someone else It shouldn't take a bar seen to go and do stupid stuff just to get noticed, we're all fucking kidding ourselves with the mind games played there. It doesn't matter how much you try it ain't going to happen. It's all in the role of who you really know, right? I know people, I watch it all the time even when I'm wasted or sober. Watching people wasted there fucking time doing stupid tricks trying to pick up another, hell people watch me do stupid stuff and where does it get me, nowhere! So fuck the bar's, fuck the games, fuck the stupid pick-up shit, fuck everything and just fuckin' be me, that's what's going to happen in my boring life of a packrat!!